“My Enemies will retreat when I call to you for help, This I know; God is on my side!”
Psalm 56:9
I had a dream last night I went to the store to buy new workout pants and there were none that would fit me. I dreamt; everyone was pointing out all this weight I had gained back.
I have been battling in my head about gaining back the weight I lost. I am pretty sure it was just me and my fears.
I have not weighed myself. I have discovered that I have given that scale way too much power. When I stand on it and it is two pounds more than I want it to be or, God forbid, five pounds more, I will feel defeated.
How can a number have that much power to dictate how I am going to feel about myself that day? Does anyone else know what I am talking about here? I have been battling this in my head for a long time. It is hard to simply “face the music” and chose to step on the scale and deal with what I see there. I would rather not. Why do I have to know? Why not just make sure my clothes fit me well and make that my target? That is my new plan.
I started to read “Atomic Habits” by James Clear yesterday and what he says makes a lot of sense to me. Rather than count everything I eat and obsess over that, I will work on becoming a smart snacker as this is my downfall. It is something that is doable for as long as God gives me breath.
Psalm 56 is about David being forced to take refuge among his enemies, the Philistines, because he is being hotly pursued by his own king, Saul. He feigns madness to save his own life. Remember that David killed their hero, Goliath has defeated them in battle many times. He is in a very vulnerable spot. David is calling out to God in this Psalm. I love verse 8 where he says, ”You keep track of all my sorrows. You have collected all my tears in your bottle. You have recorded each one in your book.” It is amazing to think that God has done this not only for David but for us.
I have not conquered any leaders and am not staying up crying over this small frustration regarding me and the scale battle, but it does bother me.
God invites me and all of us to come to Him and talk things over. I know that just like David, God is on my side as He is yours. Verse 10 reads “I praise God for what He has promised”; that is where I will keep my eyes today.
I know that I am loved as I am, and this is true for you as well. Today I will spend my energy concerning myself with wise choices and pray for the greater issues facing me and those around me. That is a wise way to live!
Dear Father,
I ask that You change me from the inside. Quiet the lies and let me rest rather in what is true and important. I ask that you walk with me through each moment of this day.
In Jesus’ Name,
Amen